lundi 6 août 2012

Endless Glory

Because I miss them so much suddenly... Here's to make things worse. 









I miss them so much!!!!!!!!!!! So, here it is. On Wednesday, any normal Cedarian would be having the time of their lives. National Day has always been one of the most hyped up event ever in Cedar. On that day, I have Chemistry SPA trial. Kill me.

Okay, a little bit more pictures. They are old pictures but the memories they hold are endless!!!!!












Oh god, I miss Cedar so much it's killing me sometimes.

jeudi 26 juillet 2012

Everyday's just getting worse

I don't know why but everything is just pissing me off today. Oh well.

mardi 24 juillet 2012

Always Gold

But everything goes awayYeah everything goes awayBut I'm going to be here until I'm nothingBut bones in the ground
So, I guess I have a secret crush on this soccer player and it's growing stronger and stronger everyday. Except, I know I'm not his type and he's not my type so I will just wait in my cave until the right evolution comes along.  


I have a Chemistry test tomorrow and I promise that I will bath after I post this entry and go straight to studying. My English sounded weird there. Today was a pretty average day. I was so tired and hungry but thank god I didn't sleep during any lessons. 

Now comes the ranting part. I seriously cannot take the Maths teacher. She sounds like a gigantic ant that can't find her sugar during class and kept smiling because she went high on caffeine thinking that the coffee she drank would have sugar. 



Well, no more ranting. I will see the light soon. I just need to remain focused and do better for my Promos. Insya'allah. 


On a lighter note, people were relatively happy today although I think I fake it most of the times. Hopefully if I fake it long enough, it will end up to be something real. 


Au Revoir for now!

lundi 23 juillet 2012

I'll come back tomorrow

50 page reviews yesterday?!

Today was pretty all right. I'm getting tired of them calling me smart. That's the only downside to every school day. My friends just see so much in me when actually, I'm nothing but a dumb touche.

After breakfast before the fasting began, I didn't sleep and ended up laughing too loudly with my sister. In the end both of us left the house very late which is a shame because we've been awake since 4.45 am. I was on time, on the dot as per usual, but she was late. Epic thing was  that she had to send a message to our parents regarding their late coming. "Dear Mom, this is the 1st time I'm late and it is only the 20th day of the term..." I don't know how much more embarrassed I would be if I was the discipline master.

After school, I was supposed to study with a few classmates, namely, Destin and Jun Liang. All right so it's only two. Turns out Destin went to study with his J2 friends and Jun Liang left. I wanted to go home but thank god I remembered I was supposed to meet Afiq in the study room. So I texted Ming En on the way there and ended up studying with Hadi, Syahmi, Afiq, Ming En and with the presence of Khalis and Adam. At around 6.45pm, after Hilman and Matin(?) came then we all left. I was pretty early for breakfast.

Right now, I am blogging. I will do the E-learning part of Oscillations, study a little bit of Geography and then do Chemical Equilibrium. I can't wait for Wednesday. Short day plus band, nothing beats that but Friday because it's an even shorter day.

I want to eat an apple now.

dimanche 22 juillet 2012

Pulmonary Aches

I've never felt like I could just miss a step and fall out of line into a pit so deep and dark that it sucks out all the life in me. 
Mid Year examinations have ended and results were announced. I guess I could say I did pretty well with an A in Math, B in Physics and GP, C in Chemistry and yes, finally, a U in Geography. I can only make one conclusion, when I study harder, I will do better. Based on my results, I guess you can tell which I studied for the most and which I didn't study for at all. Last liner for studies, PW sucks banana balls. So that's all about school and studies. 6 months has passed and I've honestly made awesome friends. 

In other news, I am growing - fatter. I'm not even kidding. I can feel the fats growing inside of me, rippling at any point of contact. It disgusts me.

So, while I'm typing this, my cat just walked behind my brother's laptop, got itself comfortable and slept. I can't even. That is too cute.

Sadly, I have to get back to E-learning because I've decided to transfer the files into my thumbdrive to access them in my brother's computer considering my brother's computer can't access any MOE website. Au revoir for now!

mercredi 20 juin 2012

Even when all her thoughts have passed

I guess I've not defined my values clearly enough. I am starting to despise who I am right now.
Time to work things out and go back to being me.
Me.
Just me.
Asian eyes me.
Making sure everything is right me.
Not anyone else. 
Just me.
All me.
Me.

mardi 8 mai 2012

Insecurities? No, it's just a screwed up situation right now.

I hate how everyone shuns people off just because they are not pretty, good looking, has nice eyes, legs, hair, body. The society in school is basically a caste system based on how good you look. Get over it. Why are they so desperate to be in tune with who's the best looking. Why do you have to force yourself to like someone you know you don't really like. If you say you go for personality, then why are you placing your feelings on how they look and only then, confirming it with their personality? Shouldn't it be the other way around? How much more shallow can you people get? I know I shouldn't be complaining because well, guys will be guys and bimbos will be bimbos. Find real friends people. It doesn't matter how they look. Heck it, that's what happens when I keep judging people. How I wish I could go back to the time when looks don't matter and it was the truth. That phrase is just a blatant lie now. It's just used to make people seem innocent when their actions spoke louder than their words.

dimanche 11 mars 2012

I miss how peaceful Cedar was...
OKAY FUCK ADILAH
Just move on okay. You've met so many great friends. Just let it go. You were bound to be faced with shit sooner or later because not everyone are Cedarians and not everyone understands.

vendredi 20 janvier 2012

Dust had settled over everything

Haha I used to top the class for Chemistry. I second-ed the cohort for an A Math paper before (suck it Vietnamese geniuses). Several times I've thought I was smart. That is, until proof in black and white said otherwise.
WELL FUCK THAT
I guess Raffles never was meant to be. I tried to DSA and even my results don't want me there. So, it is a sign that things will get better.
And someday, when I'm rich and famous, I'll look back and say,"What O levels?"

So recovery wasn't as easy as it took for the sun to shine but I got through it. I'm excited for school, wherever I go to. I'm just so damn it excited about it. Everything will be so different. The cheering of a school that would sound equivalent to a small group of Cedarians cheering. NDP will see no jumping and running and screaming and singing like we actually love Singapore. And best of all, Valentine's Day will no longer get me diabetic. Fuck I will miss Cedar. I will miss the whole spirit that died in my batch or hopefully, still lingers in the next. I miss the constant reminders of tests/examination dates. I complain so much about everything in Cedar that I actually love every bit that I've ranted about. I will definitely miss those lame nerd jokes from teachers and attempts to wake the class and stupid stupid scandals and even Mr Eng's awesome screaming ability that can be heard throughout the classroom block. I will miss screaming for Hannah across the rectangle and I will certainly miss running from the rain and getting all soaking wet then laughing about it. I will miss sleeping in lectures and doing Mr Ang's Math papers like I'm a fucking genius and get everything right. I loved it when Ms Thang spewed vulgarities and actually tried to hide them. She made Physics awesome. Mrs Lim should be proud of us because we were only 0.5 away from ONE POINT ZERO. I will miss her stupid dancing to music we all actually hate. She made everything have a lesson. God knows why. She made me realise that no one is going to fucking care about whether you intend to change or not. No one will care if you don't make it. She showed me that. She also showed me that band was the best thing that had ever happened to me in Cedar. And then there is Mrs Hon. I still fucking hate her but what the heck, she made me bond very well with the class because of that, so fuck it, thanks. The Cedar Umbridge. You were sent from the MOE, tried manipulating us with stupid shits and most of the time, wore pink. You crazy bitch. Then there are my friends. I miss every one of those fuckers. I am going to miss everything about Cedar. Every fucking thing.