Hope you enjoy it this time

Many things have been happening now. I am experiencing the plunge. I am losing focus in Math lessons because I do not understand it anymore. I have not been doing my homework regularly. I have been listless in class. So... what if I screw life up. I have no talent to help me become a musician, artist et cetera.
I don't feel anything anymore... Mrs Foo caught me using my handphone. I was just checking the time anyway. But it was so blatant and it looked like I was smsing so she just assumed. When she came up with her long speech of disappointment and how I'm making wrong decisions, I did not feel a thing. I did not  feel annoyed, guilty, pissed or whatever. It was so weird. I just wanted her to get the fuck away so that I could do my work. I did not feel any thing...
Teachers don't really care about me.. I don't know why but I can sleep under their noses and they just ignore me ignoring them..