Plastic made dreams

I remember that picture. I was helping Aqilah do her Maths work because she was late to go somewhere. Rou Hui and Hannah just pulled me in. Pictures are awesome. Especially with them. And no matter how candid, they always look great.
I've got to get back to school to see people worth seeing.
Guess what, I've done my homework.
Not all but I'm getting there before the week ends.
I promise.
Band starts tomorrow.
The new year starts on Saturday.
School starts........soon

I closed down my Facebook. In fact, I just gave my password to someone so that he can change it and I won't know the password. At least people know that I still exist.

Hello, we are...

Are you ever going to talk? It's like we know each other but at the same time, we don't. I r o n i c.

The sun'll come out, tomorrow.

And yes, I am still awake. Good morning online journal named Through the Veins of History. I just watched funny videos and one, unfortunately, involving a little boy - okay maybe not so little... He's my age - who has this rare disease that only 1000 people worldwide has.

He so-calls lip syncs and he does look quite loony but it's sad how people give him horrid comments about his singing and lip syncing. It's quite mean for the fact that he already doesn't lead a normal life like the commentators do and probably uses Youtube as a platform to express himself. It's quite disappointing how cynical people can be these days and it doesn't mean I don't include myself in it. I have to admit I am.

You see, humans work in a very weird and, well, weird way. No matter how much they say,"Don't judge a book by it's cover," they still do. That's because the cover is the first thing they see and there is such a phrase,"Make a good impression." Usually the cover makes the impression, the first impression. Only after you read the book = get to know the real deal, then we start to think.

Bottomline, no one thinks before they do something. Only the cautious. But I have to contradict myself because I 'liked' a status on Facebook that said: The daring may not live forever but the cautious will never live at all. So in the end, what should we be? If we are daring then we are foolish but if we are cautious we're just plain stupid. 


I hate things that relates to one another. It makes me feel confused. Confused about who I should be, what I should follow. I like knowing everything. The real deal about everything. Why it works that way and all. Usually what we learn in school we can find in Google but thing is, stuff like this, stuff like life, Google doesn't have it. So we're fucked.


That's why we know so little. We don't even understand the words we speak. I feel lazy to explain that now because I won't make sense and I'll only confuse myself further. 


So good night, or morning whichever you prefer (:

Sometimes, things get out of hand. But we should always follow the signs

I love this photo I took back in Paris. 

I can post it everywhere and not get bored of it. 

Pulcher

Guess what, I actually finished Biolofuckgy and Chemisfucktry. Amazing achievement. For me that is. All I have now is an essay, two comprehensions, Physics and textbook questions plus a few worksheets here and there.

It's almost the end of twenty-ten. Reflection, I sucked big time this year. But I think I've become a little more focused with my work. Though I really need to buck up. I'm starting to feel dumber everyday.

I've been watching great movies. Eg, High School of the Dead - Bloody awesome anime that is. Best I've ever seen, and I have developed a liking for other shows too. Great way to catch up with media.

And I quote from

Mitch Hewer favourite phrase in skins,"Ah, Fuck it"

Malaysia truly Asia

Alright, so I ran off to Malaysia once Singapore got too bored. Hopefully I don't have to come back because if I do, it means school's around the corner.

Star

I think the SS Geog homework is pretty interesting.

I am nuts

Hello invinsible readers who don't exist.
I have not started my homework at all. I have been procrastinating. A lot. Lately. Oh fuck.

The band room looks bloody awesome

 

Life's one big fuck.

Okay. Hello TVOH. I know I was very pissed just now and I am glad I didn't really vent it to everyone because I would have regretted it. Lesson learnt today, be happy at whatever cost. Though letting out your true feelings is what Cedarians always tell you to do, to me, its just a way for them to know the latest fact from your thoughts and then exaggerate the whole story and form a gossip. It would hurt. So I'd rather be safe than sorry.

I need to hand in my Biolofuckgy homework by the end of this month and technically, I don't really have the time. I have 5 days until it's due. 120 hours. Subtracting time for band, CIP, Open House and procrastination, I barely have enough time. So I'm bloody messed up. Procrastination is really dangerous and its getting to me.

Library Admin Work (LAW-What fuck?). Bloody shitload of scores to send down. But, I actually like it because it can help improve the communication and also the bond between leaders but not when its fucking raining! So many scores to be dried, so little time. The rain better not fall tomorrow morning or I will be sad that my beloved scores are ruined and soggy.

Open House. Band is not prepared. But, hopefully, things will turn out well because we are bloody brilliant.

Other people use 'fucking' but the British, they use 'bloody'. Which I like.

You're still my friend

I don't need you to be rich. I don't need you to have tons of followers. I don't care if the world is against you or if your boyfriend's being a bitch. I don't need you to have a thousand friends on Facebook or a billion pictures with so many likes. I don't judge you and I think that's the worst thing I have done or not done. You're still my friend though. I think of you everyday in fact. Maybe everyday. I don't know if you do too. We have been friends for years so I guess its only natural. I love you. Hope to see you soon.

I love Simple Plan

To see you when I wake up is a gift 
I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do 
Is a three fold utopian dream
You do something to me that i can't explain
So would i be out of line if I said
I miss you

I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone 10 days 
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know
That I care
And I miss you

The Breaking of the Fellowship

When the cold of winter comes,

Starless night will cover day

In the veiling of the sun,

We will walk in bitter rain.

But in dreams,

I can hear your name.

And in dreams,

We will meet again.

When the seas and mountains fall

And we come to end of days,

In the dark I hear a call

Calling me there

I will go there

And back again. 

Uh oh

I just realised today that my juniors stalk me. What the deuce. 

One day, in my late night dreams, I will marry Stewie Griffin in one of those countries having war (I'm afraid to name them because spies may come and get me!) so that after/during our wedding, he can bomb the world to create a big crater and leave us two standing on the only ground that remains standing so that we can really say that we are on top of the world.

All Time Low

I got your picture

I'm coming with you

Dear Maria, count me in

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle

And I'm the pen

When the lights go up

Go on and play the leader

'Cause you know it's what you're good at;

The low road for the fast track

Make every second last

Live and let live

I'll be the narrator

Telling another tale of the Plemping dream

I see your name in lights

We can make you a star

We'll take the world by storm

It isn't that hard.

Take a breath

And let the rest come easy

Never settle down

Always want more

HA HA HA HA

What is wrong with the world?!

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I shall admit

1. I'm a nerd, and I'm proud to be one because I know it is good for me
2. I love Maths. Back to 1
3. I love Science too. 
4. I have a fetish for A1s :\
5. I love music
6. And life is good when I make it that way

Don't judge. 

I shall do what Suhair did

A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1 A1  

I hope it helps ._.

I sense something, something strange

Kriste Eleison

See on your way
Children forgotten and lost.
Give them a hand,
To lead them
To other tomorrows.
Feel in the the middle of the night
The wave of hope,
The ardor of life,
The path to glory.

Childish joys,
Erased and forgotten too soon.
A golden light shines endlessly
At the end of the road.

Feel in the the middle of the night
The wave of hope,
The ardor of life,
The path to glory

What a joke

Knock knock,

Who's there?

Your friend Stewie...

And he's always going to be there for you

♥

Life

" And we sing, sing without a reason,"

Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong. There are days when I feel like things can never get any worse. Truly, there are other days where I tend to wonder why they even exist. Every once in a while, when no one speaks, even during that split second, we start to think about ourselves. Only ourselves because in fact, we are selfish people so it's only natural. Its just that, most fail to admit it. I sit here, thinking about myself too.

I can see myself in the near future. Remarkably successful with many cars and a big house with a wide garden in the middle of France. I can also see myself lonely, confused with no directions in life whatsoever. Depending on my mother and father for everything that they can no longer give to me. Things that I should get for myself instead. Peculiar how life works. How we think. The choices we make. The kites we are able to fly.

I need to fly my cerf-volant. I need to be un cerf-volant. Because in time to come, I will realise that I need to open my eyes before I die. Open them to see everything around me clearly before I can't anymore. Look at the big picture from above. Look down and make that change that I want.

Running through my veins

No words to describe

I am studying Malay :D

School is technically over.

Eng: B3

HML: C5

SS/Geog: B3

E Math: A1

A Math: A1

Chem: A1

Bio: A2

Phy: A2

Comments: Adilah displays a strong sense of responsibility and a high degree of emotional maturity. She demonstrates initiative in solving problems and takes great pride in her work. Adilah should continue to remain focused to strie for excellence in all aspects of her work.

To Mr Ang Kai Jie: I'm sorry that I disappointed you in A Maths. I know you expected me to get an A1 but I didn't. I'm sorry I blanked out and didn't read the questions properly and didn't have proper time management. I'm also sorry about letting a worm get me distracted from morning assembly. I'm sorry that I tend to sleep in class. I want to thank you for your nagging had actually made me relook into things. Esspecially about Biology and school rules and boys. Thank you for all your concern. Even though it gets irritating, I realise that it is sincere and that's more than what we can ever ask for. Thank you for all your Maths homeworks and papers and quizes that kill our souls. All in all, thank you for being a great E/A Maths and form teacher of 3A. We won't be the same without you.

SARAS: HAPPY HOLIDAYS ADILAH

ME: THANKS, SEE YOU ON MONDAY. 

Contradicting? Yes.

I'm so bloody scared

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I think I had too much fun that I forgot what was really important.

Hello, we are the Young Veins

So we got back a few papers today. I deproved in almost everything but SS, English and Malay. Is that depressing or what. With that, I am not looking forward to Monday at all. 1. I totally neglected Physics. I am prepared for a fail but I don't want one. 2. A-maths was just..

Mr Ang, "I do not want to ruin your weekends."

Spoken like a true hero. So therefore, we can infer what would be the comments that we were suppose to receive for the A Maths paper.

Brutal, Just so Brutal

I'm dreading tomorrow. It's like dooms day just not as bad. But that doesn't make it good now, does it. If I deprove, I'll never see life anymore, not that I did before this. My next end of years is O levels and my next few major exams will be my most important ones. Technically, it is just multiple prelims. Oh fuck it. I don't give a damn anymore. I shall just live with it. All this bull shit about  studying harder. There is only so much I can do. So much I want to do in fact. I realise I cannot force myself to do something. I must really want it then I will go for it. If not, fuck it. As I said.

PSI 108. Singapore's becoming more and more, like China. Air polluted, more and more China people here. Frankly speaking, I feel like I no longer posses an identity. When foreigners come to Singapore, I am just labelled as a Chinese because they see it as the most prominent thing in Singapore/Asia. To make things worse, I look like one. No matter how tan I become. One day, I'll be black. Hopefully then will people regard me as someone else. Will I get into jail for that? Well, I mean no harm to whichever spy dude is reading this. Highly unlikely but I shouldn't take chances.

I miss you people. Good Night

Somehow they are right,

But I will never fucking admit it. Because I know it'll be over soon because I'll make it that way and I always make it that way.

I have been mugging like hell these few days. Everyone's thinking about getting retained and I am not even thinking about it. Now, that is how screwed I am.

Fucked up, just so fucked up.

I saw, RAIN

Raindrops fell today. What a relief. I thought we were all going to die of heat stroke or probably a heat wave if temperatures continue soaring. Like what Jay says, with every good news comes a negative one. I had to crack my brain during the third period for the Chemistry class test. Somehow I blanked out and didn't have any idea what was going on. I think, I. Should. Start. Studying. Immediately. Okay, maybe tomorrow.

I have a load of homework. I want to study, but the ever piling homework insist otherwise. Do teachers think that homework is revision? Or maybe, do they think we have so much time that we can do both and complete both by their next period? Its utter nonsense. I wonder if I can use the word 'nonsense' in my compositions.

Saya patut tidur sekarang. Sudah beberapa hari saya tidak mencukupi tidur. I sincerely think there is something wong with my grammer.

CMD

"You’ve just had almost the most imponderable joy of watching Charlieissocoollike, which makes you like, cool."

Its holidays with ( ' ) above it.

 

 OH, OH, OH MY GOD

 

Screw exams. Why must the British's system dominate our lifestyle? They left us in despair anyway. Unlike mid-years, I have showed no effort in trying to study for the upcoming exams. There's this high possibility of deproving though every neuron in my full-of-fats brain wants me to improve.

I cannot believe I just spent my time editting my already dead and rarely visited blog. Ditched the whole yearly blog system. I just finished my Biology homework, like finale, and now thinking about how the puppet's red hair reminds me so much of Charlie McDonnell. Oh Charlie Charlie.