Brutal, Just so Brutal

I'm dreading tomorrow. It's like dooms day just not as bad. But that doesn't make it good now, does it. If I deprove, I'll never see life anymore, not that I did before this. My next end of years is O levels and my next few major exams will be my most important ones. Technically, it is just multiple prelims. Oh fuck it. I don't give a damn anymore. I shall just live with it. All this bull shit about  studying harder. There is only so much I can do. So much I want to do in fact. I realise I cannot force myself to do something. I must really want it then I will go for it. If not, fuck it. As I said.

PSI 108. Singapore's becoming more and more, like China. Air polluted, more and more China people here. Frankly speaking, I feel like I no longer posses an identity. When foreigners come to Singapore, I am just labelled as a Chinese because they see it as the most prominent thing in Singapore/Asia. To make things worse, I look like one. No matter how tan I become. One day, I'll be black. Hopefully then will people regard me as someone else. Will I get into jail for that? Well, I mean no harm to whichever spy dude is reading this. Highly unlikely but I shouldn't take chances.

I miss you people. Good Night