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No one will read this but it can be a tool for me to remember.

It's brand new year now. I guess it's time for a change. In attitude, in priorities and in effort towards many many many thing. Surely as guessed, I will be spending more than half of my life next year on my studies. The first few months though will be given to band. My batch of band members must break the tradition. We must be the legacy. And after that, it'll be all mugging and nothing more. Maybe exercising too to keep my brain working well. O levels is a bloody big thing to me and I don't care what fuckers got to say about it.

Many things have happened this year. Some good, some bad and the bad, I mean stupid. Foolish, plain dumb. Other than that, I'm pretty happy. I managed to become academically better and finally after two disappointing years, I got back my Edusave Scholarship. This may not be a big deal to many people but I kind of need it to know whether I'm good enough. Sure enough, I have not been good enough among those asshole smart Cedarians in Sec 1 and 2. So I guess in summary last year was a pretty good year.

Special tributes to people who have made this year the greatest. I'll try to narrow down to only a few, or maybe only Cedarians since I'm around them for half my 4 years in my life. The people outside Cedar are awesome and great but there's just so many that I really really really care about.

Aqilah, Anisa, Hannah, Hazirah, Junie, Rou Hui, Samyata, Shafena, 3A and a whole lot more. The names I've listed down have been there for me through my years in Cedar and have been the best I must say. The greatest thing they've done for me is to accept me even when I'm doing crazy, stupid things and studying too much at times. I love them with all my heart.

And then there's one more, Maisarah. Its now... 12 years. She's technically been there for me all my life. Everytime I see her, it's as if I've never seen her for forever but its only been months or something. I tell her every single damn thing. She knows everything about me. She understands me more than some of the closest people in my life. She's like that one person that I know very well will stick around me for the rest of my life. Our moms may have a bit of problems with each other but whatever fucking thing they do to make you seem like I'm not worth your attention or vice versa, it never works. I loved you when we were 5, and I still love you now.

InsyaAllah things gets better this year and I get better.